brilliant :)

i had the most awesome night ever :) my friends really are amazing :)

the world is beginning to make sense again im beginning to relax. i think i can finally breath :)
to those who smile shall prosper with the warm feelings in an ageing heart. those who cry will feel the warm tears of a sympathetic heart. a heart that feels, that beats and that shows emotion is one that is truely worthy to be called human.

smile

I had truly forgotten what it was like to laugh till i cry. until now :) 

blues

Im happy im sad I wanna cry I wanna scream I wanna shout. I am a mess. I dont what the right thing to say is.. Im so low on confidence and i can barely smile.
I feel so alone and i dont know how to open up. I sit here writing this in a university full of strangers whilst knowing i cant make peoples lives better. I have so much that is good around me like my friends. But i have so many questions. I dont think im good enough for university. If i was a better daughter and friend could i make my mum happy again? i wish there was more hours in the day. I just dont think im good enough to even have an existance. When i love i love with all my heart and all my passion i love with the all i have. But when i hate i hate like hell on earth. i can barely keep a level head around those who need a level head. I wish upon every star that i could give my sister good health and i wish i could give my my mum the confidence to believe in herself. and i wish that i could make a person smile so wide that there heart swells with being content. I wish upon every wish that i could have just one wish but i know deep down im only wishing on empty wishes.