u wont bring me down

i aspire to reach my aspirations and dreams. nothing will pull me down. without my aspirations everything i have ever aspired to be will be worrthless. which is what some people would love me to feel. but as i said they wont bring me down, they are not the way forward they are my past and they will stay there. i am no longer a child, i am no longer someones puppet to control, i am myself i will reach my aspirations indefinatley nothing will stop me going higher than i have ever gone before. i am not afraid i am truthful and full of opitomies and wishes and my never ending thoughts which are one of my most beautifulist creations.


so u all watch me il get there never u worry mind or try to bring me down as i will be all i aspire to be xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

bangface birthday

RAVE IT U AT THE BANGFACE RAVE GET UR SWAG ON AND GET UR CLOTHES OFF. 


LIVE IT 
LIVE IT 
LIVE IT 
LOVE IT 
RAVE IN IT 
 WANK IN IT 
ITS A FUCKING AWESOMENESS DAY!!!!

fuck it all

you can never seem to help who u fall for regardless if there wrong in every way for u. if we could help it then life wouldn't have half as many challenges or problems for that matter. there will always be something that i regret. and this is my regret. i look to the future and see nothing i watch as my friends are doing such cool and brainy things. they have something that i really don't. its called prospects. i right now am struggling to feel, let alone see a beautiful starry vision dream or future. im beginning to hate what i have become. the saying u can sit in a room filled with people and still feel alone is so true. anyhooow back to the rather horrible point i had originally. i let the chance and person i could have had go, what a fucking retard . im so fucking paying for it now. i feel like an empty shell full of nothing but stale air and useless crap. what is the point to life if not find the things a human desires such as love warmth, family, lust, belonging, and acception. the feeling of being wanted and i dont mean in i need u to do something for me way, or i need money way, i mean as being truely wanted, to want to be there for the rest of ur life. or to care what there thinking and feeling. all of that smutty shit that i generally hate but for some reason am craving from the one guy that i let go....... ??????????????????these question marks are not the constant thing in my head their driving me nuts, i literally feel numb but have so many unanswered questions and no fucking answers. one day i will feel as i did before. the feeling of when i walked i truely walked it was as if i where floating with so much good feelings and happiness. this blog is so damm fucked up. but have no diary so fuck it??????????

emo...tions

my old poem

Death is something that visits us all,
why postpone and wait for death to call.
Just take a gun that could it all,
wait for the bang and your hand to fall,
Or better yet take a knife,
cut so deep you take your life.
While you lay there waiting for the world to go black,
make sure your doors are locked cos theres no going back.
Write your letters in black and blue,
and say goodbye to those who loved you.
You look around at the things you own, 

and you dont understand why you feel so alone.
You start to think about the place above,
cos the thing that made you feel this way, was a crazy thing called love.


By Siobhan Fowkes.

EPIC FAIL AT TALKING TO GUY

Siobhan Fowkes

• lol im glad the films have taught u something  and have an awesomeness weekend! and i would love to meet up with u after giving u back ur hoodie if u still want to that is. im sorry i didnt write back i have been out all day and unable to use my fb on my phone, but its cool if u dnt want to meet up i can give hoodie to baz if u dnt want to see me. but i would like to see u but i get it if u dnt. also u prob wont get the message till u get back but i have asked baz if i could have ur phone num to text u that i would like to see u i apologize for my rambling il stop lol xxx oh wait i hope its ok to get ur num im sorry if u dnt want me to have it oh crap i dnt look like some sorta stalker chick right oh crap i blatently do. im going to stop writing and text u xx

shit day :(

i hate my family but i love my friends moly webb in particular :)