Okish

Today was okish. I forgot how amazing kids are at making you laugh. Banana has missed me and she was so sweet and loving. She was my little minion. I had wrote loads of words down for her to spell in a new book I gave her. And her smile was perfect, it was a smile worth getting out of bed for. I still struggled but I made it, I wore pants and everything. The sea today was so strong, It made me feel so small and insignificant but at the same time I was in such awe that this big power surrounded me. Natural beauty is one of my favorite things I love that in bad houses beautiful flowers can roam. I still hurt but I think that I cant bow out. I want to see everything, I want to feel a love that consumes me. I want to experience my dreams and let go of my nightmares. I want to feel that moment when the world feels like its stopped and I stand there facing something that my imagination never thought possible. I want to live. Even though I feel like I am knee high in mud I think I can make it out. Luck, love and life to you all.