Positivish

I made it through a day of not crying. I have to make one last dreaded call to the landlord, which I am scared to do. Grrrrr I just want it to stop. I do worry though, what if I have been so depressed and wrapped up in myself that my friends will like me less. Or what if I have become a burden. I have been that bad I can see why they would want to avoid me. Maybe I am being silly, I dont know. All these what ifs keep popping up and they are worrying me so much. I need a cuddle that says I love you and I will be there for ever. I think were people constantly leave me so easily I worry that the people closest to me will, and I even I know that that is silly. Stupid stupid head. But today was better than yesterday and that I can handle :)