Slighty

Things are slowly getting better. I have had a brilliant couple of weekends. Molly made my birthday weekend so special. She was great and she really put the smile on my face that I needed. Last weekend was the bonfire and friends and drugs. I loved it. I then followed that up with lots of sex and a week of trying to piece my world together. I finally spoke to the landlord and he was so great with me. I got the letter through from the jobcenter and they are agreeing to pay me! I have an interview in like 8 hours. Gawd I am nervous. I still feel so uneasy though. I have the butterflies in my stomach that usually mean i am nervous scared or that I am anticipating something going wrong. When Molly is with me she gives me courage and I dont feel awkward. When she goes I am so socially awkward. This is what my next mission is. It is to overcome this. I am usually nervous when I meet people but I think where I have stayed in it has broken me a bit. I plan oon having an ace weekend this weekend and it shall be good. I hopefully will be back to my full weird self soon.